This 39 woman from germany.. She named jasmin. I call her yasmine. And I loved her so much. Even she have hurted me emotionally so much for 8 months for preferring another boy and pampering him with every type of pleasure.. erotism way or affection way.. Infront of me.. but shes with me now. But more dry. More closed. Doesn't give me any time or attention... Suddenly got busy with her life.. after I was finding her since I wake up at 1pm untill I sleep 2am spending time with him... And she claims now that's we were both friends to her that time.. I made her barely leave him and love me. But I see she doesn't with what she do to me for untill now 8 months.. she hadn't given me 10% of what she have given him.. and I still grieve... Alone.. waiting her to text me.. she does. Twice a day.. telling me how was her day living her best life and enjoying with her family.. while I'm here neglecting my family.. studying.. spending time out.. doing any of my hobbies.. just incaged in her curse of seeking revenge and urge to feel balanced.. as she claims thats she never loved him.. and she loves me.. theres worser things I cannot mention. Thats she did for him... Sexually and erotism things. As wearing for him a cow costume to dance together in a nightclub game in roblox.. and dancing Infront of him.. that dirty dance style thats meant to rub her ass to his... Even though he was younger. And with me. She was so dry and treats me like a stranger. Even when I texted her "I miss you" everytime I was dying of longing to her.. while that boy she prefered than me... Was having the same fun with her girl bestfriends when she wasn't there.. she used to match with him her avatar in roblox everyday and exactly!!.. and she lied to me and said thats she never did with just one person.. she made him see her face and hear even her laugh!! While she took months to show me her face while we was friends !! And I never heard her laugh untill now... Im just so miserable.. and I did read about something saying that "true love isnt just a word. Its saying and staying. Its about thinking about that person still being the best even though he's the most person who did hurt us"...
In general. I wanted you to write my suffer in a poem.. tells everything. And how I love her truly...